gahh....

Haizz....such crap man life has at times :-(. Frankly I don't think I have the strength to even describe what happened vividly.... Its just so messed up. I wonder why at times it has to be me but, again coming to think of it there are more people much more messed up than I am, so yea I just shove it up my head and move on :-).

I went to KL the day before, about 1.30 am. I just felt a sudden sense of loneliness and i really don't know why on earth I chose the heart of Malaysia to go for a ride. Either way i just shot of to KL and yes, the very minute i reached KL, my emotions had a complete 180 degree change....I really wish i had a proper reason for it but this is one of the times where you just can't comprehend why you feel that way. The lights of KL made me ponder alot....it made me somehow dive inside myself and it really stirred alot of emotions. It made me feel very very lonely.

It made me feel that I really have nobody but myself. It was just me alone against this monstrous concrete jungle I'd say. Honestly, what did I do wrong? I did nothing. I was just lonely...but why is it I have to think sooooo much?? I hate it...I loathe it! But then again, I missed it all.....I remember how I insecure I used to be and the lights of KL brought me down that lane again... I just stared at the city and thought to myself that this ride would have been the sweetest thing if I had someone that I could love whole-heartedly.

Picture this....you and the girl you love\adore the most in the world, you both having a ride down KL streets at night, sharing stories, exchanging opinions and cracking jokes laughing to your hearts content, and you look into her eye....she's the sweetest thing you'd ever possibly imagine :-). The lights of KLCC really blew me off into my imaginary world. At KLCC, you and her, snapping pictures, turning on a music, dancing with grace.....under the starry night. It sends a message to the world, "both of us are imperfect but our love isn't. She is everything in the world to me.." Trust me that rush is beyond what a dose of adrenaline could possibly give :-).

I really hope someday I'd be fortunate to make it happen....till then I guess the lights of KL in the dark nights would be my greatest company of my imagination. :-)....

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I don't know why....I am here out for breakfast and I know this loneliness is setting into me. :-).... Its been quite awhile since I've had the capability to feel this sort off loneliness. I try denying the fact of it but yeah it is something I really cant. :-).... I guess everyone will feel the lost and loneliness if the sun is setting on the other side of their world. Mine isnt any different....I suppose I'm gonna miss the warmth and comfort the sun has brought for a short period of time. :-)....I'm gonna miss it alot....:-)