Saturday, April 14, 2012

Datuk Sam

     To the guy that has been my best friend since my childhood. The silent guy I have always known. I grew up with him and I was more fond of his silence than his ridiculously chatty mouth. It took years before I actually I begun to realize that, in fact, he has so much more bottled up inside than I thought I knew. His name, to me, Dato Sam a.k.a Jeevan s/o Kumberasamy.

     He hides his pain behind his silly actions. He cares without any in expectation. Extremely playful, yet, knows his responsibilities and carries them out without any complains. An individual that is so much more stronger than he thinks he is. He never loses composure no matter how tough life gets. He stands up and fights it like a real warrior and till now, despite being tired of everything, I still see him as a man that still fights. You, my friend, you are a warrior. You may not believe me but I have respect for you and I have always been fascinated at how you handle all those rubbish life had thrown against you. Placing myself in your shoe, I would never emerge a winner like you.

     Rejected numerous times and having people around you taking advantage over you, you still believe to choose to believe in humanity and stick to the value of being true friend. That shows the difference in life's ladder you have in comparison to all those morons. You take the weight of your family upon your shoulders and you never show it to the world. People may take you for granted but I can tell you this, God, is all knowing and He sees all your deed. All your pain, rejection and walk of shame will be turned around to make you one of the best individual the world has ever seen.

      Thank you for being my best friend and for constantly looking out for me. Thank you for all the times you forked out your cash and spending me for my medical bills, food, entertainment and even my other half. We both are truthfully grateful to have known you and to have you as a friend. I may not be able to give you anything in form of material but I can give you one thing. My prayers. I pray that you will succeed against all odds and someday you'll find your better half to share your life with you.

    To you Dato Sam-gangster, thank you for being my Best Friend since 1995.



Thursday, April 12, 2012

Pissed off.

Yes, I am outrageously pissed off.
Pissed off at myself.
Pissed off at my incapability.
Pissed off at my attitude.
Pissed off to the fact that I have nothing to stand up and say it is mine.
Pissed off that I am just an ordinary guy with desires and dreams that seem vague at times.
Pissed off that I can never sit be secure of myself.
Pissed off at the thought that I do not have any rights over the one I love.
Pissed off that I may end up loosing with a bitch slap on my face.
Pissed off at the world for crushing my will to my knees at times.
Pissed off to the fact that no matter how much I want to take harsh approaches in a positive manner, I may never be able to because of things that happen.
Pissed off because despite all this forsaken bullshit that is happening, when I look at my right hand, I stare at the bracelet given to me by Her, speaks "HOPE".

I want to take the sword off the ground and thrust it deep into the core of this world and say "FUCK YOU" and held my head high up and yell my victory over all the odds.

I do not even know how to further type anymore.