This fated incident however, brought me a lot of realization. It made me realize how unhappy I really was. Yes, I constantly went late to college. I was not happy stepping into any of the classes. I felt empty and insignificant. Things got worse when a certain individual threw tantrum at me and I do not blame them for doing so because the timetable was such we all felt the stress. I deferred my semester as I was unable to write and being a right-hander, not much of an option was left. It took two complete months to recover and much have happened. In the beginning it seemed like a blessing in disguise, but as time faded loneliness begin to set in.
I spend a lot of time going out and hanging out but by the time I am home, sitting in front my laptop, a slight twitch from within. Left and right my head turns and with a heavy heap of "sigh" it sets in. The loneliness. Somehow in it I find my solace. It chokes the neck and the tears well up but I would not give in. I do wish sincerely that I never felt this loneliness but it definitely is not something new in my dictionary. I guess in these hours, I ought to feel such way. The only person in the world that could possibly feel and understand me is my partner ji Thahranya. :), but that sweetheart is asleep, haare ji, mera boht boht miss u ji....:)). It seeps in this broken and trampled heart. It makes the sutures tear apart. It feeds on my memories. It is just another part of my emotions that I sense deeply. My loneliness.
